Saturday, July 26, 2008

Unplugged

A huge part of my frustration here at camp has been that the Internet doesn't work in my room like it does in EVERY BODY ELSE'S. So, with that said. I am going to see how my week 3 goes without trying to walk to another room and post and check in daily.
Campers leave tonight and campers come tomorrow. This past week was great as we finally did the zip line (into a lake) slides (into the same lake) and the blob. Yes, I got injured on the blob. I don't think I'll be doing that one again. We're all over the zip line though.

My heart has been pretty black these last few days. I am in need of prayer. I despise my job and I'm feeling guilty for it. I bought the Children's version of Tom Sawyer to read to them this week. Hopefully during the time I've been spending running off to check email or post, I will choose to read to them and hold them and play with them. Things I typically don't enjoy doing. Please pray that in my efforts to do this, I find joy in the job of it. And that hopefully it won't feel like a job.

So, I'm unplugging in this effort to change how my heart feels about being here and my children's contentment level and their responses to me. Thanks for praying (if you do.)

5 comments:

Chelle said...

Will be praying!

Mari Fontana said...

I will definitely pray!

Stacey said...

just caught up on your camp stay... reading them all at once gives me a good feel of the up and downs camp can be! can't imagine doing that w/ the kids...
know you're not checking for awhile but want you to know i'm praying! thanks for praying for me too! ;)

Nichole said...

Rachel, I will be praying for you!

StaceyStace said...

Praying for you...hey, being a mom is tough enough anyday - don't let that guilt stack up on ya! Just praise the Lord in the face of the enemy, ask God to give you strength and remember that on those days when you hate your job, that does not reflect on how you feel about your kids. Of course you love them immensely. Why else would the job be so insanely hard? Because you care about them and their attitudes and how they respond to you! I hope the rest of your stay at camp gets easier. Just think - a break is coming, Siesta!