My Heart

There is such division within my heart. I can almost see a visible line drawn through it. One side represents the Spirit that lives, dwells, directs and consumes me. The other is quite a bit darker. I had an accountability group when I was single and we would preface a lot of our confessions with: "I have such a black heart." This black side is full of weakness. It is fueled by evil. It is full of deception and is easily swayed toward darkness.
In high school I memorized Gal. 5:13-26. The passage speaks for the sin nature and the Spirit. I believe that is exactly what I am talking about when I evaluate or assess my heart. It is so exhausting to fight or even feel the pull all day long between the two natures.
For today,

Lord, help me in this struggle to choose to listen only to You. To keep my eyes focused on You. To think about what is pure, right, honorable, praiseworthy, true and admirable. I know that my Spirit is willing and that my flesh is so weak. In this weakness, I plead with you for help. I know that you can do anything and I can do nothing. I choose to abide in You. I invite you to reign in my heart today! Thank you. Amen <><