Friday, October 3, 2008

My Heart

There is such division within my heart. I can almost see a visible line drawn through it. One side represents the Spirit that lives, dwells, directs and consumes me. The other is quite a bit darker. I had an accountability group when I was single and we would preface a lot of our confessions with: "I have such a black heart." This black side is full of weakness. It is fueled by evil. It is full of deception and is easily swayed toward darkness.
In high school I memorized Gal. 5:13-26. The passage speaks for the sin nature and the Spirit. I believe that is exactly what I am talking about when I evaluate or assess my heart. It is so exhausting to fight or even feel the pull all day long between the two natures.
For today,
Lord, help me in this struggle to choose to listen only to You. To keep my eyes focused on You. To think about what is pure, right, honorable, praiseworthy, true and admirable. I know that my Spirit is willing and that my flesh is so weak. In this weakness, I plead with you for help. I know that you can do anything and I can do nothing. I choose to abide in You. I invite you to reign in my heart today! Thank you. Amen <><

4 comments:

Heather said...

We DO need to get together! With your busy schedule, find a day (except Wed. night or Thurs. morning) and I'm free. Call me!!!

Mari Fontana said...

So good to 'read' you again...;)
I'm glad your back...I want to encourage you...but I know that sometimes it can sound so 'cliche'.
But I have found so many times that I need to simply remember what God's word says about me...
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..
It is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me...
Nothing is impossible with Christ..
Staying steadfast in His word for that is how I see change in my life...Sometimes it is soooo very slow
But..
He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it...
You are complete in Christ...
Totally accepted and forgiven...
He will establish your heart blameless in holiness...
1 thess. 3:11-13
He will finish the work of sanctification at His second coming...Take heart He is not done.
That is great news for me! I am not finished He is still working in me as He is in you dear sister in Christ.
With a Sisterly love
Your cyber sis in Christ,
Mari

Jill said...

Hey girlie...you made my day when I saw your name on the comments. I sure have missed you. I like the new look on the blog. I hear from your posts what you say, and I am so thankful for SA because I can see your heart and eyes as I read your posts. If you need a trip to FL, ya'll come down, we have a pop-up and all the girls can hang out. What fun. Summer beach fun in the fall.

Nichole said...

Just lifted you up in prayer!