Monday, August 18, 2008

Real Reason for being "on Hold"

I didn't know what to write. I didn't want it "out there." But, two days before leaving our month-long stay at camp, I found out that my sister was flying home with her four children to flee from her lying husband. We were all shocked that he has been living a horrible double life for their entire marriage.
We began our 15 hour drive home. By the middle of it, I realized I was on one of the longest hardest roads I'd ever be on. I was driving away from a rich, exhausting time working at a camp. But, I was pointed in the direction of devastation. The closer I got to OK the more real the pain became.
I have been walking this road with my sister now for over a week. I'm answering questions to my children I never thought of. I now beg for prayer for healing for her and for this difficult transition for her four children.
I contemplate my own marriage and realize that we live in such a fallen, messed up world. I long for Heaven and am thrilled that I have the hope of Heaven.
God, I know that you don't change when our circumstances do. We need your help.

11 comments:

Mari Fontana said...

I will be praying for sure!!!
I am so sorry.
Mari

Chelle said...

Ick ick ick. Will be praying. Marriages are under such an attack right now, I hate it! Give your sister a big hug for me. And, God understands her cries, her yells, her anger, and her sorrow. Go on, pour it out to Him.

Nichole said...

Wow, that is soooo hard, for everyone. My sister went through a "simple" divorce, no kids involved, etc. That was a lot more difficult than I ever would have thought, so I can't imagine what your family is going through. You will all be in my prayers.

Emily said...

hey Rach...still praying, you ok?

Connie said...

What! I just read your blog. I'm praying. I'm just an hour down the road. I'm here if she needs me. I love your sis! Tell her I love her and I'm praying..OK?

soonercolby said...

How devastating. I'm so saddened... Praying for all of you. Love you, Natalie

Heather said...

I am so sad, Rach! Tell her if there's anything she needs, I'm here to help! I know that w/ you and your mom and brother here she has lots of help, but if there's a time that you all aren't available, or if she just needs to come to a house that has no memory of him, she can bring the kiddos over here.

And if you need a break away from it all or anything else, please call me.

Jill said...

I have had you on my heart, and have checked back daily to see if you had posted. I am so sorry you are being blasted with this horrible and evil work of the enemy. I was just telling my little one today how the enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy...even at five she swallowed hard and decided he is someone to be reckoned with. Dwell in His safety. Psalms 4:8

Constance said...

Popped in from the Siesta Fiesta Blog and just want you to know I appreciate your honesty. It's easy to get caught up in pride and never even realize it. I trip, stumble and fall, all the time!

Saying a prayer for you in the midst of your situation. In December of 2006, I found myself on a long road as well. My 51 year old brother died unexpectedly and I rushed home to St Louis to be with my folks. As I sat on the airplane awaiting take off from DFW I wanted to cut and run so badly! I knew once I was in the air, it was real. How do you comfort your aging parents when they have lost a child? God is SO good though! Sometimes encouragement comes to a person not by what we say but what we do.

Connie Hopkins
Denton, Texas

valerie said...

Hi Rachel. We "spoke" a while back. I'm from Oklahoma too & will be in San Antonio this weekend with my daughter.
I have a post on my blog about protecting the open places.
What you have written about your sister and her situation is something that I've also been dealing with...with a couple of ladies close to me. Both of these men are in the ministry and both marriages are over. It is the saddest thing to me. Both have lost their ministries, families & much more. It does seem like satan is working hard to destroy marriages and those in ministry are under attack more than ever.
It's a fear of mine too, even though a have a great marriage, I see so much out there and at times worry because I think "If it could happen to them....it could happen to me." I know I need to trust God and not be fearful.
I will keep your sister and all of your family in my prayers.
Hopefully we'll get to meet face to face this weekend.
God bless!
Valerie

Aron & Suz said...

so devastating to hear, Rachel. i am grieving with you all. you are in our prayers. sounds like you and your family are just the support she needs right now.