Friday, August 8, 2008

On Edge

There's no pill to swallow that can take away the stuff I'm feeling inside. I wish there was such a remedy. I know. I know..... God is my remedy. But still, I am about to burst. There is tension within me that I can't explain. We only have a day and a half left here. I feel like every corner I turn, there is trouble. This sounds so vague. But, I'm not going to mention other people's problems on here. It just then I am not hearing any good news right now. It's ALL bad and I'm feeling defeated by it. I've been begging for prayer all month and now there are so many people in need of it and my tank feels empty.


Kimberly said...

I totally understand feeling defeated. I totally understand feeling like the tank is empty, and I totally understand being so full of your own emotion that the Holy Spirit can't do what He needs to do. Consider yourself lifted up and interceded for.

Irritable Mother said...

Oh Rachel, I am sorry for your trouble right now.
Do you have a few minutes to get alone with your Bible? Can you read Psalm 77 a few times?
Asaph was in great distress, feeling like God had rejected him and taken away His love.
Asaph was certainly On Edge.
But then he chose to remember who God is, and His wonderful deeds. Then - oh what a difference in Asaph's outlook!
If you are able to, please get alone and read this Psalm over several times, slowly and aloud.
Let God use it to fill your empty tank!
I love you, sweet sister, and am praying for you!

JanMary said...

Hugs and prayers from Ireland :)

Staceystace said...

I have an award for you at my blog...

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time right now. You are in my prayers.

Emily said...

Hey Rachel! I love you girl, I am thinking you may be going home tom. by this time? I am sure home will be such a wonderful place to be! You made it!! I know it may be hard to see right now, but I just know that God has used this experience to grow you in so many ways! I will be praying for a wonderful homecoming tom.
Love, emily

The Ballinger Family said...

I am sorry you are feeling that is so draining. Prayers and ((hugs)) coming your way.