Thursday, February 19, 2009

Misunderstood Negativity

I realize that things I write about on my blog could inaccurately capture how I am REALLY doing. I just feel like doing a bit of clarifying.
As most of you know, I am AN OPEN BOOK. I don't ever want to hide anything. I welcome the next level faster than anyone because that's where real is to me. I especially enjoy movies that are REAL and not fictional hollywood box office hits! I have been as open as I can be for a blog, a place where any eyes can read at any given time. I have to protect the privacy of others.

It's a hard balance to talk about struggles without someone misinterpreting it and calling in reinforcements. I tend to only assess on here the difficult things that churn within my mind about my life. I don't typically write about the great cheery moments of my life for fear of people thinking that I have it all together. What if a struggling mom stumbles onto my blog and finds a post that captures only good stuff in my life? What if I'm writing about a recipe instead of the internal beating I may get from reading the Word of God? I am NOT saying that posting good things or sharing recipes is a bad thing to do on a blog. I am saying that I won't do that here because that is not what this if for- for me. I want for God to be glorified through this outlet. I desire this to be a place where people can share in an authentic relationship with a human being that strives in this Satan ruled world to live by the Spirit of God within.
As I do that, the tone that will generally be heard is one of depression, negativity, frustration and anguish. My life is not currently that. I have hardship. Who doesn't? I want to use my hardships to grow and this is a place that helps me to do just that.

Thanks for reading.... To God be the glory for the Great things he does!!!


Mari Fontana said...

I enjoy your raw truth...and I do not think you are a negative person. Who doesn't struggle??

Staceystace said...

I understand this...I am blessed with a happy and fulfilled life, BUT I struggle with real things - some that may only be real to me. I use my blog as an outlet for myself and also hope that it will offer a word in season to someone else who is struggling and feeling alone in it. I think it is easy for those of us who tend to be a little more contemplative to feel we have to be "perky" all the time because that is how many others tend to their blogs. Actually my writing sounds more serious than I am in person...I think its because while I like to laugh and have fun, it's just not my personality to have a joke-a-minute! I appreciate your honesty and I do see your desire to honor God through your struggles.

Mimi said...

This is a good clarification for those who are not in your day-to-day life, like I am privileged to be, where they would see the victories Jesus does give you over your fleshly struggles, especially in parenting as well as you do. You just state in being real what Paul tells us....."Our fight is not against any physical enemy; it is against organizations and powers that are spiritual. We are up against the unseen power that controls this dark world, and spiritual agents from the very headquarters of evil." Eph 6:12 (Phillips)