But, it was the conversation by the pool with a dear friend (so close to me, she's more like family) of mine that impacted me the most! She expressed her excitement about us being a part of the Young Life family and then asked how I was doing. With tears in my eyes, I explained to her how much I struggle in this job of being an at-home Mom. I'm feeling unhappy and unfulfilled. I feel like I am full of resentment and bitterness.
Her words were simple: Do you call God: "LORD?" Well, of course I do! Then I have no right to myself. I am surrendered to His Lordship!!! This means, when I feel the yuck of the job, I discipline myself to say, "Yes, Lord!"
So, I'm home now and I always struggle with the re-entry back to life from my time away. And, I'm struggling. Can't I be back at the poolside crying about it and feeling charged to come home and fix it instead of actually "doing" it?
Lord, I know well that I cannot DO this job on my own. Help me to see you in the midst of it with me. Keep me from becoming so discouraged and so bitter towards what you have called me to do? I love you and thank you for Loving me.