Friday, December 4, 2009

God is my Provider

I've known since the beginning of September that Nick's job with Young Life could no longer exist after December 31st. The funds simply aren't there. So, as we've been seeking the Lord for options I have found myself back at the basic knowledge that God is my Provider. Is it easier for me to trust Him in this because we have a cushion in savings? Because we have two sets of parents that would welcome us into their home if we couldn't pay our mortgage? These have been convicting questions to me. I know that I know- that I know -that God takes care of us. But is it easier for me to look like I'm living in that confident faith because of these "back ups" in my pocket?

Obviously we are now in the month of December and nothing has actually been decided yet. I hear my heater running all day today because it's 17 degrees outside and I think of the cost of being warm. I think about my Dr. appoint that is scheduled in January that I may have to try to move to next week simply because who knows if we'll have insurance.

Trusting God can only happen when there is something to trust Him with. I am so thankful that God has put me in this boat where I float in HIS Trustworthiness. Francis Chan talked about in a podcast I heard yesterday that in Proverbs 30:7 this man says this:
"Two things I asked of You,
Do not refuse me before I die:
Keep deception and lies far from me,
Give me neither poverty nor riches;
Feed me with the food that is my portion"

Dude!!! The guy is asking to live paycheck to paycheck. He doesn't want anything extra and he doesn't want to starve. To say, Lord, only give me what I need FOR THAT DAY! The timing of hearing this verse spoken in this way was perfect. I know that God has all the details worked out. There are conversations that are happening almost daily about options for Nick within Young Life and as they happen I wait with the Patience and Peace that God has given me during this time.

It would satisfy parts of me to come on this blog and post my big announcement of our plan. But, I have nothing to report. **Except to testify of God's Provision.**
HE has always taken care of us. I watch it through my parents generous hearts. I see it in the patience and peace that He provides. I see it in the fully stocked pantry and freezer. I see it in my girls closets that are full of hand-me-down clothes. We are set and it is because we are more than sparrows! We aren't set because I have some money in savings. We aren't set because we have parents that are generous and would take us in. We ARE set because God uses whatever he needs to to see that we are taken care of. I rest in that and will continue to even after I hear of the plan for our future. One day at a time!!!


Chelle said...

Beautiful post friend. Will be praying for you guys.

Maybe now is the time to jump on board with AdvoCare?? :) Love you much. And, if you need a place to stay in Lubbock, I gotcha covered.

km said...

I'm living this lesson from God too. My hubby was laid off at the beginning of October, just days shy of our 10th anniversary. We're still looking. I"m so thankful we don't need our heater here yet. That can get expensive. We did live through some 100 degree days without A/C though. I KNOW God will provide, but for me being still and waiting on HIS PERFECT TIMING is so hard.

shanna said...

This post is so refreshing. He really is all we need...sometimes we forget a need a good ole' tial to remind us :) He is more than enough to keep and sustain our lives! Miss you!

Stacey said...

wow, rach. i know I so often just say "I love you" on your posts, but that truly is what wells up in me each time I read your heart. so I say it again: I just love you!

kaylyn said...

Rach - as I'm sure you know, this post is so timely for me/us right now. Every day as we are no closer to employment, I search my heart - do I really believe He is our provider or have I been saying that because we've had everything we needed? As we talk about what to cut, what to do next and the conversations of selling the house, moving, etc start I keep saying in my heart - Lord, you know. I'll do what you want me to do and go where you want me to go. I do trust that YOU take care of me!
Thanks for this post. It's HUGE for me right now.
I love you!