Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Ramblings

...I'm just having a hard time feeling like I have anything post-worthy to write about. I mean, I've been bouncing around in my head about how big of a wimp I am because I said all these great things about the stage of life I'm in and then the tantrums hit and my coping skills flee. I immediately go to that place in my head that says, "Survive this." Because I lived in a state of survival for so long, I leap back there when the going gets tough. And the tough is going. With a certain daughter just being plain, flat-out MEAN, I find myself getting MEAN. Here I am trying to teach her not to do the very thing I'm doing.

These summer days are sure different. It's like I need a "thing" to do each day just to keep us sane. I often wonder if we lived in Africa would we feel this same daily need of something? I see how one of my daughters is beginning to notice "America's" beauty and it makes me want to fly to a third world country today.

For now~ we'll keep playing Trouble and Go Taco (a version of Go fish from Taco Cabana!) And hit the pool when I feel up to it!

10 comments:

StaceyStace said...

Hey, you're not a wimp! Your're a mom and some days are way tougher than others. You need not feel bad about that. Satan likes to jeer at us when we have a difficult time -after we have praised the Lord. Just praise Him anyway! =)

Kimberly said...

I couldn't agree with StaceyStace more. God never promised us it would be easy, only that He would be with us. So don't feel defeated when it doesn't feel easy. That's just Satan's lies.

I totally hear what you're saying about needing to do "something". I think a lot about how we have become convinced that we need to be entertaining our kids 24 hours a day and if God really intended for that to be the way.

Dina said...

Boy if i'm not going through EXACTLY the same thing!!! My girl is getting mean....and she was never like that...I feel like it's a "reflection" of ME...SO,I take it soo personal and then I'm being mean to her...it's a vicious cycle!! Its terrible. I feel like when she's mean, don't give too much attention to it ( in fear that its a reward thing to get attention from ANY BAD BEHAVIOR), but if i blow it off, then I'm neglectful and she thinks it's okay. good luck and I hope we both work it out.. Keep smiling

Erica Lynn said...

I hear ya on the daughter getting mean. My daughter can get really mean and I find myself doing the same thing. Let me know if you find anything that works. Even at the young age my children are I TRY to explain how sinful they are being and that only by confessing that particular sin will they change. I just pray it is sinking in and not over their heads. I'm praying for you!

Connie said...

I so understand! Sometimes I feel like I need to send myself to time out and to take a nap (if only I could...) I'll be praying for you.

On a whole other note...I've got a friend from down here who's Mom will be lifeflighted to a hospital in OKC sometime in the next 48 hours. Her Mom is being placed on a heart machine there while they wait for a transplant. They don't have any connections there, and I was wondering if I could give her your name in case they needed something. I know you guys have just been through a heart scare and could really empathize with her.....Let me know if that would be OK. Thanks so much!

Connie

Mari Fontana said...

If we only knew how many of us are in the same boat...I am so with you. And I can't tell you how many times I want to go to a third world country too! Hang in there...

JanMary said...

My eldest daughter and I clash often too - I think we are too similar!

Summer holidays just about to start here too - 8 weeks stretching ahead. It takes a week or so to adjust to a more relaxed schedule, then everything calms down a bit. We have a few church bible clubs which our kids really enjoy going to, so that will give us all a break :)

Hugs and prayers.

shanna said...

I can relate. Having just come back from Africa I did NOT want to come home. Being in an orphanage with 80 kids that had Jesus and a ball and were filled with love, joy and peace made me frustrated to be in America. BUT I know God picked the places we were to live and uses our sweet kiddos to refine us, draw us near and make us more like Him. Miss you!

Irritable Mother said...

"For now~we'll keep..." And God will continue loving you and carrying you through. For now, and forever. Don't forget that!!!

StaceyStace said...

Your comment made ME laugh. You are so funny!