Misunderstood Negativity

I realize that things I write about on my blog could inaccurately capture how I am REALLY doing. I just feel like doing a bit of clarifying.
As most of you know, I am AN OPEN BOOK. I don't ever want to hide anything. I welcome the next level faster than anyone because that's where real is to me. I especially enjoy movies that are REAL and not fictional hollywood box office hits! I have been as open as I can be for a blog, a place where any eyes can read at any given time. I have to protect the privacy of others.

It's a hard balance to talk about struggles without someone misinterpreting it and calling in reinforcements. I tend to only assess on here the difficult things that churn within my mind about my life. I don't typically write about the great cheery moments of my life for fear of people thinking that I have it all together. What if a struggling mom stumbles onto my blog and finds a post that captures only good stuff in my life? What if I'm writing about a recipe instead of the internal beating I may get from reading the Word of God? I am NOT saying that posting good things or sharing recipes is a bad thing to do on a blog. I am saying that I won't do that here because that is not what this if for- for me. I want for God to be glorified through this outlet. I desire this to be a place where people can share in an authentic relationship with a human being that strives in this Satan ruled world to live by the Spirit of God within.
As I do that, the tone that will generally be heard is one of depression, negativity, frustration and anguish. My life is not currently that. I have hardship. Who doesn't? I want to use my hardships to grow and this is a place that helps me to do just that.

Thanks for reading.... To God be the glory for the Great things he does!!!

In the Midst of It

I love that phrase, "In the midst of it." How amazing is that promise that God is right there in the middle of every single thing in our lives!!!!

In my struggle, I know that God is in the midst of it.
God is in the midst of all of my emotions.
He is in the midst of my depression.
He is in the midst of my joy.
He's in the midst of my growth.

I'm just thankful that in every high and in every low of each and every day, God is in the midst of it.

Depression

I once struggled with depression. It is such a difficult and tricky thing for a Christian. I would ask myself, "Is this spiritual?" There are so many things in life that I am just so fine about because I "get" that God is in it all! So, when I was depressed, how could He not be "in" it? You can read about my being freed from depression here.

Even when you read about my experience of being freed from depression, you can see that it was a spiritual healing that took place within me. I don't see a very clear line between the two. Depression (which says to me something about serotonin levels being off) and my spiritual life seem to be two total different things.

I say all of this right now because I'm wondering what it is within me that still feels like depression is waiting for me right around the corner? When I sense it, I immediately start wondering if anything is off spiritually speaking.

Lord, hear my heart today. I'm confused about some of the things that I feel. I take such comfort in the fact that you know me so well (Psa. 139) Thank you for carrying our burdens. Thank you for promising peace!